Wednesday, April 27, 2011

LAX ♥

THIS BLOG IS DEDICATED TO MY LOVELY LACROSSE TEAM. <3
oh my goodness, i love you guys. 


i'll start by pointing out the obvious, I LOVE YOU. a lot. you mean the world to me. 


last night was senior night and i was holding back tears it felt like the whole night. the sweet underclassmen planned such a perfect senior night/day i couldn't have asked for anything more. they brought us goodies and little cute gifts throughout the school day. 


us lovely seniors. :)


then once we got the field they were already there hustling around making sure everything went perfect. the field was beautifully decorated and each senior had a cute poster. and one big one that said, "WE <3 OUR SENIORS!" loved it. then once the festivities began as each senior walked through the arch of fellow laxers it became more and more real to me that i would not bet here next year which made me have to fight back tears even more. 
then came my turn. escorted by my family, i limped though the arc. right when i thought i could keep my composure i saw taty and lauren crying and i had to look away really fast. love those girls. then i came to my awesome coach and it was even harder to fight back those tears. then as the rest of the seniors walked through few words were spoken as we passed each other because we knew if we said what we were thinking the waaa-bulence would have to come quick.
then as if all this wasnt enough my coach had me and marina (gimp 1 and gimp 2) take the field with the starting line-up. before the first draw he called a time out and subbed us out calling us one at a time. as we both took our turns limping off the field the crowd and teams clapped. truly a moment i will never forget. (of course im still fighting back tears at this moment) as i come to coach he offers a fist bump just as he would any other player which made the whole situation feel more game like. so yes. i started in my senior night and had a perfect game. so did my fellow gimp, marina. :)
gimpiess :)

we won our senior night 17 to 1. it was quite the game. so proud of all the girls. 
even though i got injured and can't play/couldn't play the last couple games i have still loved every second of this season. of course i would give anything to be back on the field but i cant change what happened to my knee. 




for what it's worth:
coach is always telling us RIGHT NOW. and he is absolutely right. i kept telling myself next practice ill bring my a-game, next game ill play harder. but how dare i say that to myself. how dare i not give 110% all the time for my team, my coach, and for myself. if we dont take advantage of the moment we have right now then whats the point? how do you know there will be a next time? there wasnt for me. not to sound like im dead or anything or can never play ever again, but i dont have a next game to play with the herndon hornets. so we have to trust in coach when he says RIGHT NOW. there is no other time but right now. so team, dont ever say to yourself as i did, next time. say (pause) RIGHT NOW.  love you girls. keep playin tough. the season aint over yet. :)

Sunday, April 24, 2011

can't sleep..i guess ill blog!

PLEASE DO NOT JUDGE ME FOR LACK OF GOOD GRAMMAR AND WHAT NOT. ITS MY BLOG AND ILL WRITE HOWEVER THE HECK I WANT. thank you! :)

well. it's been a while and i guess a lot has kinda happened? idk my mind is just racing right now of all the things i need to plan..and im becoming a little overwhelmed..so here is my list-

  • grad party
  • write graduation SPEECH (yes i have to speak since i am the class prez. grr)
  • get ready for summer term at BYU (i dont even know what this consists of..i just know i need to do it!)
  • do all the senior stuff like senior slideshow and basically plan graduation
  • prom dress/dresses
  • get asked to both proms (friends assure me its happening id just like it to happen sometime soon)
  • plan prom stuff. (dinner, pictures, limo?, etc)
  • knee surgery and rehab and all that crap..
ok. i think thats it. thats kinda a lot of big stuff though. gahhh its mostly all exciting stuff but also kinda stressful too. things are just happening so fast! there are like 38 school days until graduation which means like a month of school then COLLEGE. bittersweet. im gonna be such a mess with the mix of emotions. goodness. 

let me explain my knee thing. my knee blew up. k not blew up but i tore my ACL playing lax. its a real bummer. and yes there where times when (i made sure i was all alone..) that i broke down i cried cause it means i cant finish my lacrosse season, meaning i cant improve or stay in shape,  which means it will be that much harder to make the BYU lacrosse team. and i cant do the thing i probably love most right now. but after a couple days of feeling sorry for myself i got sick of being unhappy. i became determined to be happy. i bought a "reasons to be happy" notebook where each day i write the reasons im happy. its going pretty well. some days i forget and only right a couple things but im trying really hard to write everyday. and my amazing lacrosse coach gave us all these wristbands that support this young boy with brain cancer that his daughters lacrosse team adopted kind of that helps remind me that my predicament is not the worst that could happen. if this little boy with brain cancer fighting to stay alive can be as happy as can be there is no reason i cant. 
this knee thing has actually taught me a lot-
  1. it confirmed my desire to major in something to do with sports medicine, like athletic training or physical therapy
  2. it has taught me to seize every moment. my coach is always talking about "right now. right now is the time to be great and do the best you can..." and i believed him but never really took him up on it. now i wish i had. i kept telling myself before my knee blew up that i would be better next game, or work harder next practice, but then there wasnt a next game for me or a next practice. not to sound like im dead..but i cant improve anymore so i missed my opportunity to really play the game i love. 
  3. it taught me to be happy. i have so many reasons to be happy that there is no reason for me to be upset or pout for any reason. yea this knee things sucks but things could be a lot worse and i am so blessed in so many other ways.
im sure there will be more hard days to come after surgery with physical therapy and getting back to normal but things will work out. things always work out. 

well. i guess thats everything, now im tired and im going to bed. night bloggers! :)